its been a while

i know that i have such an abundent amount of readers on this so sorry for taking so long to write one this for sure. i dont know really what to write about at the moment casue there has been a lot since the last write so i guess ill just start something.

i think this post will be about postmodern

im reading a book by tony jones that is really good called postmodern, now this post isnt about that its more about me. It has been really hard to comprehend some of the things that tony has been talkin about for sure. I think that the main reason is that i was born and raised in the same church all my life, and its really hard for me to just get over some of the things i have know was right all my life. i think that the funny thing is that the last few years of highschool when we got a youth pastor at our church he was teaching us how to be or show us that we are postmodern even though he never really said he was doing it to us.

now i know that some things were still the "modern" styles of teaching at least i think becuase it talks about it in the book, but its really wierd. For some reason the postmodern thinking for being a youth pastor is the way i want to go, just there are a few things in the way.

1) im still learning a ton about it and i feel as if sometimes the things i read or am told about are just so over my head i think to myself how am i ever really understand this?

2) its really hard to change the way that i have been thinking all my life, and i know that everyone says you cant change your ways after a certain age and i really think thats gettin close, but i know i can, its just hard.

3) at our school postmodern is very looked down upon, now im not bashing them or anything like that but its just kinda funny that the postmodern view is to accept everyone for whatever they believe and i really like that, and here is my prof sayin how stupid it is.

(sidenote: i emaild tony jones about this, like what should i do if a teacher says something like this. and even though i had a great idea what he was going to tell me i thought maybe he will say something else. but i was right he said you just sit there pretty much and you dont get red in the face, cause if i did do that i would be just like him. now i may be doing it right here and now, but i just had to tell someone so i might as well tell the internet.)

4) its hard to try to start thinkin postmodern when were still in the shift from a modern time to a new time, and even though maybe postmodern time isnt the perfect thing, i think its the best thing for right now.

ok thats all i have to say for now, i feel really stupid
bye